No news is good news... but I have some bad news

I'm having a bad week.
I hate college. I hate life.
I want it all to just end... not my life... but the things happening.
Everything is overwhelming and I'm not sure how to handle it.
Just now my friend Isaiah commented on my facebook status.. and well he made me feel a whole lot better..like someone actually cares.
this is short.. because i'm talking to someone..
who i happen to like.. i never thought i would..and i'm probably going to get hurt.. but well.. i'm going with the flow.


ok scratch all of what i just said..
guys are just pieces of shit.
i have no self confidence.. period.
how fun.
i need to take my laptop back.. asap.

i also need to eat..
i'm not starving myself... ok well... maybe.
idk.. i just don't have the will power to go get food.
i'm so tired of EVERYTHING that.. ugh.. ihy69e574wvaq3]\n

yeahhh that's how i feel.
i hate being used. and!! feeling like i'm not good enough..
that i have to prove myself to someone..
and NOT even that.. i don't prove myself.
it feels like i have to be someone i'm not.
just so i'm accepted.
i thought college was ALL about diversity but NO.
to hell with that theory.
people here are just as unaccepting and racist as many of the people i've known prior to coming here.
i wanted change.. and well... i don't see it.
people are judgmental.. selfish.. conceited... ughhh
why am i ranting? this doesn't hep my situation at all..
i guess it makes me feel better.. and it's not like anyone reads this anyway...

i want to go home. now.

or anywhere...

this is how people become addicts.. many of you.. if there is anyone.. who read this..
won't know what i'm talking about.. but a select few will..
let's just say... those thoughts never fully go away.. and they are growing stronger with each passing day.
i fight them.. but it's not working.